Sunrise at Dome Rock Road camp . . .
The crew and I have a visitor today.
I’m sitting at my table at the back of the Best Little Trailer when I hear the whirr of wings. A hummingbird flies over my head and buzzes the back window. My camera is within reach. I open up the screen behind me, take a few quick photos, and away he goes.
Earlier in the day, the crew and I walk the desert.
We amble along one of the many dusty lanes that weave through palo verde, brittlebush, ocotillo, and creosote.
When Bridget, Spike, and I left our campsite, the temperature was perfect as it has been every morning since we came here. By the time we make our return, the day is already warm.
We pause frequently to pace ourselves or to regroup. We need to keep together, allowing no stragglers for coyotes.
During one of these pauses, as I’m looking out over the desert, a gray bird with a brush of blue on its wings lands on a creosote bush near me.
“Well, hello, you precious thing,” I say, as the bird looks me over. “How nice of you to stop by.”
After a minute or so, the crew and I continue our walk.
At the next pause, the bird reappears, again alighting on a creosote bush near me.
“Aren’t you a friendly creature,” I say in a low tone, amazed to see him again. “Are you following me?”
Further down the lane, our campsite comes into view.
Bridget is already far ahead of us. She’s showing off that she knows the way home.
“C’mon, Spike. We’d better catch up with the Bridge.”
Shortly before the campsite, I stop and look for my avian pal. I wait.
Here he comes!
To my astonishment the bird lands on a branch of the palo verde, swaying forward and back until the branch steadies and he obtains balance.
While watching the bird, I recall a person from my past who loved me. He used to say . . .
“The robins sing about you.”
I’d like to fancy myself the great communicator with all things untamed and free, that the birds are my personal friends who look over me and guide me, and who seek my company. Ha! Not likely. It’s probably this blue shirt I’m wearing.
I leave the bird on the palo verde and hurry to open the door for my thirsty crew. Just the same, it’s a charming fantasy.
On a different note . . .
I haven’t felt much like blogging lately. It was all I could do to put this post together. I seem to have lost my equilibrium. I know what my mother meant when she’d say, “My nerves are a wreck.”
That’s how I feel.
I’m jittery. My arms tingle. Sometimes I hear a ringing in my ears.
I drive us into town for a distraction but it doesn’t help. I absentmindedly leave my purchase at the cash register at the hardware store. The clerk runs after the PTV and hands it to me through the window when I stop before pulling out onto the road.
I go home and try to relax all day.
I feel like I’m coming out of it. This is something I’ve experienced a few times before. I believe it is the result of being battered emotionally for many years. It’s one of the reasons I don’t like drop-in guests. The thought of people coming around unexpectedly makes me nervous.
Please don’t shower me with get well wishes and sympathy. It’s not a big deal. Gosh, it’s miniscule compared with the problems some of my readers have to cope with. I mention it only to explain this late post and in case I don’t keep up with posting and comments during the next few days the way I customarily do. Enough of that . . .
Now for an upbeat message!
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rvsue
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First time commenter here, but long time reader. And I’m at the top of the list for this post.
Every now and then you just need to step back and relax from the world. It will still be there when you are ready to come back to it.
Great advice, Philip. That’s what I’ve been doing. I’m glad I have my lounger. Spent a good part of today in it.
Thank you for being one of my “long time” readers!
I agree! Great Advice and thank you Phillip for popping in at the right time! Sue, you work so hard at keeping us entertained, informed and educated about rv camping as a solo woman that you need to take more time for YOU! I am sorry that some not so nice people keep trying to tear you down! Don’t let them win, like Phillip suggests, just back off a bit and take a few deep breaths. We all love and support you no matter what!
I know you do and I appreciate it. The people of my blog are wonderful and supportive. I’m okay. Just going through a little valley — which is ridiculous and crazy when here I have the life I’ve always wanted and many people can only dream about.
It sounds like the hummingbird and the grey bird with blue wings helped…..If Casita doesn’t use that sunrise picture, they’re NUTS! It is gorgeous.
I kinda’ miss the desert already.
Actually it was online shopping that gave me a lift! LOL!
Oh, yeah, I could use a new pair of Keens. Thanks for the heads up.
Mary of CO
You’re welcome, Mary. I never knew shoes could make feet feel so good. I haven’t had any more knee pain since I bought my KEEN trail shoes.
You’re entitled to take a deep breath, relax and enjoy the life you love without worrying about anybody or anything (except Bridget and Spike…). Deep breath, relax, look at the view, hug the crew and enjoy the day.
Thanks, Edie. It’s silly really. I have a pretty relaxed life to begin with. This sort of thing doesn’t make any sense. I’m not worrying about a thing. Oh well… nice of you to comment.
Sounded like you we’re worrying about the blog 🙂
We will be here when you feel like chatting and sharing.
Well, there’s worry and there’s WORRRRRYY.
Don’t do either kind. 🙂
It happens to me from time to time too. In the middle of our recent wonderful Pacific NW trip, I had two such days in a row for no good reason I could figure out. Absolutely maddening.
I finally wore out my Teva’ s this summer after 15 years, and you’ve convinced me to get Keens this time around instead. 🙂
Hi, Tamara,
Yes, maddening! No apparent reason and off you go into zombieland! I never leave packages at cash registers. I was so off kilter that I figured I’d better get back to camp before I did something dangerous. Ha!
For lack of a better term, I have nerve things at times too…I find that taking a good B complex vitamin and magnesium does help…I finally found a B Complex that is a time release…that helps most of all I think!!! I too need rest from activity and others. As you say, maybe due to past emotional abuse (and for me physical abuse as well, growing up). Like you, I do not want sympathy…but one needs some time apart. Thanks for alerting your readers to your perhaps vacation for a bit…cause some of us do care and do worry. We feel we know you!! (Even tho’ you know us less…ha!) You are fortunate to have the 2 little dogs…I MISS having one a lot, even tho’ it is not feasible at this time…later!! I think dogs are the best comforters!!
You may be right, Elizabeth. Since it doesn’t seem to have a situational cause, it may be chemical or simply a throwback to the past when the nervous system was damaged by stress, abuse, etc.
Yes, pets are such a help, so calming, even Spike when he behaves. I’m sorry you can’t have a dog right now. I’ve always had at least one since childhood. It would be tough to not have a canine pal.
I second the comment about B complex.
I’m terrible about vitamins and supplements. I buy them, take them religiously every day for a few weeks, and then I forget all about them. No dang self-discipline.
Well, as we age, we need them more…and with our badly damaged food system here…tho’ in bigger places at least we can find more organic stuff…we take them every day. We get those little sets of boxes (actually at Michael’s or some similar store, hubby got some of the little connected boxes for housing your beads, etc…come in side by side 7’s…as he takes more things than I do) and we set them out beside the bed, kitchen counter, dining table…where we HAVE to see them, depending on our current living set up…ha!! A doctor actually helped us years ago, to figure out what we each one needed and I have added some things as we have gone along, due to what I research, etc. Another VERY important thing for us, is avoidance of any form of corn syrup which is in most prepared things!! THAT should be outlawed…not good for man or beast.
Actually, taking them when you need them is probably better than taking on a regular basis. More and more reports are coming out that tell us mega dozing on vitamins can do more damage than help. It’s chicken soup time or in my case veggie soup time.
As in ALL parts of life, of course, moderation is important. IF we had homegrown, organic foods at our disposal and ate mostly that type, maybe we would not have much need of vitamins. Some people who have lived through more stress in life than others, may have a greater need of such help as well. We are none of us machines, all with slightly different needs.
Sometimes we ignore our spirit. I’ve always believed that my mind overrides a lot of physical and mental “warnings,” but I always listen to my spirit. Our physical symptoms always get our attention, even if they are temporary. I know it may sound kooky, but my “off days” are spent recuperating as much as possible. It gives my entire being a rest. I’m not ashamed to admit it, but I live with bipolar disorder. Without the proper medication and my listening for my own needs, I would be, as my students say, “cray-cray!” Please, don’t litter Sue’s blog with medical or homeopathic advice; I’m just saying that we all need to give our spirit a recharge.
As a teacher, it is extremely important that you recuperate whenever you can. You give a good reminder to all of us.
Having bipolar disorder is nothing to be ashamed of, as you stated. It’s in my family, too. Kudos to you for speaking up about it. There are still folks in this world who need enlightening.
Thanks for writing, DeAnne.
I meant medical/homeopathic advice for ME–you can give it to Sue! 😉
RVSue, on the link I used, the KEEN sandals for men are also part of today’s sale. Tick, tock, gentlemen!
😉
Eileen in Phoenix
Oh, wow! I didn’t know that. Thank you, Eileen. I’ll edit my post.
Hi Sue….I know how you feel. I just spent 3 months hosting a 7 site campground on the Pit River near Fall River Mills, Ca. The place is remote and gets very little traffic anyway and during the government shut down I saw or spoke to no one for 20 days. My travel partner had left to spend time with her children. Since there was no cell or internet service I had gotten out of the writing mode. I spent my time sitting on the river bank casting a baitless hook for days. It was like I had lost all inspiration to communicate with anyone except talking to the birds and small animals I saw. After being back closer to “civilization” for two weeks, I am just now beginning to feel like writing again. I’ve spent the last few days catching up with you since I last saw your blog in August. Sue, as I have said before, you have a great community of readers that care about you and appreciate you sharing your life. Take as long as you need, we will be here when you return whether it’s a day or a month.
Your experience does sound a lot like what I’m going through, Dave. Last night and this morning, I couldn’t even reply to a comment. I tried to blog and nothing! It’s the weirdest thing . . . as you know.
Good to have you back. I appreciate your kind message.
Keens ROCK! Mine just died and I am still grieving them. This must be sign to buy a new pair 😉
I hear you – I have been out of sorts too. not sure what is up with that, but am taking care of myself. Glad you do too!
Who knows what influences we are under on this tiny planet hurling through space. Keep on the upswing, Kellee!
Be careful with the sizing for KEENs. For the trail shoes I ordered a half-size larger than my usual size, based on customer comments, and they fit perfectly. For the sandals, however, I ordered my usual shoe size, based on the sizing information given by Amazon. For the style I chose, 91 percent found them true to size. I love how Amazon has all these helpful gizmos. Anyway… Hope you find the sandals right for you!
thanks for the info on the sizing – I was wondering what size to order. this info helps!
I hope I’m right… Everyone is different, of course. I’m going by the odds, based on the info at the Amazon page.
It happens to me sometimes, too. I feel adrift and anxious and can’t seem to get my oars in the water. Usually there’s plenty to do but I almost feel suspended in time and space. There’s an unreal quality to it. I’ve discovered it often happens after I’ve had a unpleasant experience or two, especially the kind that comes out of nowhere. Like I’ve let down my guard and somehow “invited” this negative energy into my life. Reading and spending quiet time in a beautiful place always sets me right again in a day or two. You’re already taking that prescription, so you must be on the mend 🙂
You’re description is right on the mark, Marcia. I couldn’t get “my oars in the water” at all! And it does seem unreal… At times, while lying back in my lounger, I closed my eyes and felt like I was floating.
One has to wait it out. I’m feeling great right now. All these positive comments from good people who experience the “out of sorts,” too, have helped me.
Sue, I don’t think that the gray bird with the blue wing was there by accident. Someone sent it to you. Perhaps the “person from my past who loved me”. All of us who have suffered abuse ride a roller coaster that we never asked to get on. Over the years, the highs get just a little lower and the lows not quite so low as before but they never really go away. Maybe someone sensed you going downhill a little and sent the bird to remind you of the beauty of your life now, the love that you have been shown and redirect your thoughts to the goodness in life. So rest well and look forward to the next day with your beloved pups, your rambling hacienda and yet another spectacular sunrise. Make this your focus. A little birdie told you so.
What a wonderful message to me and all of us, Rosemary! Delightful! It would be just like the person I mentioned (who has passed away) to send that sweet bird to calm my nerves. I’m chuckling again… reading “A little birdie told you so.” You are a dear. Thank you.
Oh, Rosemary, I soooooo agree! I’ve heard that feathers falling around you are a sign of an angel sent to watch over and comfort you. RVSue, you got the entire bird!!!!!!
Rosemary, I believe you’re absolutely right! Check out the book ‘Animal Speak-The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small’. I believe too that your friend may have sent this bird to you, Sue, and that birds may be your totem animal.
Lavender oil has been very helpful to me personally & professionally. I use lavender hand lotion just before I go to bed at night. I also sprinkle lavender oil in my office either to bless the space before an anxious patient (or parent) comes to see me or to cleanse the space after a difficult appointment. I’ve seen it change completely the tone of an appointment. Two thumbs up for the B-complex vitamins and little pill containers to help keep track of supplements!
Have a wonderful day, Sue. I really enjoy your posts. Take good care of yourself.
Thanks, Dawn. You have a wonderful day, too.
Animal-Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small
2 yrs ago after massive dental work in Algodones, I found myself experiencing my first ever panic attack. I thought I was going crazy. Me–normally a very calm person. The only thing that kept me from going over the edge was an herbal supplement called Calms Forte by Hyland, found in most pharmacies and Wal- Mart. It has helped weather unexpected “nerves” that have become part of my elder years.
I found it on Amazon:
Hylands Calms Forte
Thanks for the tip, kgdan!
We just ordered this from Amazon! Chuck and I both have trouble getting to sleep, maybe this will help! Affordable (much cheaper than our prescriptions!) AND free shipping! We will let you know if it helps us! Plus I get my panic attacks when I am a passenger in any vehicle when I am not the driver! Happens everytime, so maybe these will help calm me down as a passenger!
I’m sure I’m not the only one curious to know how it works for you both.
And on a completely different note from all other commenters so far… you seem to have a neighbor nearby. Friends? Or just passing strangers…
Hi, Connie,
I don’t know them. I’m not surprised someone in a big rig took that spot. I almost parked the BLT there. I decided against it because it’s next to a wash where Spike would disappear and where coyotes travel at night. Also I try not to take sites that are good for big rigs.
When they drove up this way and pulled in to that site it seemed like they already knew it was there. Maybe they come here every year. All I care about is that they not be obnoxious neighbors.
So far it’s like they aren’t even there… no noisy generator or toys. I’m happy.
See everyone? Sue and Crew are good neighbors if their neighbors are good too. 🙂 At least I am assuming that Spike hasn’t lifted his leg on any of the property yet…
You assume correctly, Connie. He has, however, snuck over there and sniffed around their campsite. He can’t resist — he’s such a sociable little fella.’
Of course if they had a dog, pmails would have to have been delivered…
Oh, goodie! Now we can start calling Sue Dr. Doolittle (talking to the animals, not because of the zombie zone you were in ;)). Or should we call you ‘bird whisperer’??
Hi, Ladybug,
The “bird whisperer”… very funny. 🙂
It was like that bird wanted to be my friend! I must be losing my grip on reality . . . And how weird is it to have TWO bird incidents in the same day . . .
I suspect that this birdie has known humans that feed birds… and thought you might be worthy of closer inspection.
I always talk to animals. I thought everyone did until a friend of my kids said, “Are you talking to those dogs?” I said, “Don’t you?” The conversation flowed from there. Too funny, but I’ve always conversed with the animals around, and often felt something (nature, animal, etc) was sent by a loved one to comfort me. Talk on, RV Sue!
Hi Sue…
Some days when I’m about to comment here, no words come to mind, so I don’t leave one. Always enjoy your blog though. For the past 20 yrs. I’ve had a Tuesday deadline to get my shelter “Adopt-A-Friend” ad into the local paper. It is a freebie and we do appreciate it, but it seems like a chore sometimes so I could not imagine trying to write as often as you do. Take a break, now & then. Tell us your going on a vacation for a week.
I have a huge stress load at this time with a 92 yr old with mild dementia. Years ago I learned of the benefit of Lavender oil from a vet tech. She used it at the clinic if an animal was upset. It has a calming effect on people and animals.
I dab some on a cotton ball if my mother is getting on my neves ( forgive me, but it happens) 🙂 It also helps calm her. Vitamin B complex was good advice also, I take it also. Take care…
Hi, Val,
You certainly do have a “huge stress load.” Your situation is what I meant when I said my “problem” is miniscule compared to what some of my readers cope with. God give you strength.
Here’s a link for anyone interested to lavender oil.
Lavender Oil
Thanks for writing, Val.
Oh, Val, you’re also a member of the “family caregiver (international, thanks to you) club.” I’m conservator for my brother, who has schizophrenia. I think I’ll make a batch of “Hyland Calm Forte” brownies now and slap on a little lavender oil! RVSue, like the very dedicated staff says at my brother’s facility: “Weird is the new normal.”
Hi, Gayle… I don’t know if you were kidding or not, but the brownies sound like a super idea!
God bless you for caring for your brother.
Anything worth doing is worth doing with chocolate! Thanks for the blessing! Will soon see Mariel Hemingway’s documentary “Running with Crazy” (this is not a commercial) about how she learned to live with her famous family with mental illness, and now campaigns for people to talk about it. SUPPORT, not SHAME. (I don’t intend my post fall into category with nuclear pro-liferation & gun control! Delete if you think it does! Just trying to share productive experiences in honor of my brother’s challenges.)
No problem, Gayle. You shared helpful information.
Sounds like that bird may want a handout. I bet RV’ers have fed him before. I have had birds as pets and they become very responsive to people. mine loved to be near us. animals know a kindred spirit when they see one. Be safe and try the B vitamins. I have heard them called the happy vitamin, because they lift the spirit.
Hi, Jean,
I wondered about that, too… whether the bird was accustomed to someone feeding it.
I don’t put seed out in the desert any more. Some always falls on the ground which attracts doves, chukars, quail… and first thing you know, the coyotes are hanging around.
I tried B vitamins several years ago when I was under a lot of stress. They didn’t seem to help, but then I don’t think anything short of a coma would’ve helped me in those days.
I remember when I lost a job for the first time and fell into a deep depression over it. I was standing on the front porch staring out into space when a hummingbird came up to my face and hovered several seconds and then flew back and forth several times. I think the Lord sends them! Just sayin’ Jan from Oregon
I had almost the same exact experience back in 1992. I was laid off from a job I had held for about 5 years (along with 25% of the company, sadly enough) so I went to a state park and stayed in a cabin for a week to try and figure out what my next step was. About 3 days into the retreat, I was sitting on the front porch, and a hummingbird appeared and hovered not 3 feet from me at the door, almost like it was trying to get in. I truly believe it was sent to tell me things would be all right. And my life did turn out all right. I believe that so-called coincidences are are God speaking anonymously.
White clouds gather like folds of soft linen against the sky…rereading yesterday’s post I was struck By the beauty of this statements. It’s poetry…..
Hi, Willow . . . Thank you.
Dear Sue, I certainly hope you are feeling better very soon! I love the bird stories, how delightful!
We drove through Quartzsite yesterday going north. We enjoyed looking at all of the RV’s parked just about everywhere. That place must be crazy in January and February! We are not boondockers but my in-laws went there every winter for many years with a group of church friends. They loved staying there and the slabs.
Take care and enjoy the birds!
Hi, Colleen,
There’s no place like the Big Q. I’ve been meaning to stroll with the crew along the booths set up along the street. Maybe today, maybe not. 🙂
Hi Sue
As some have written, I believe the birds were sent to you. Look at it as a sign that someone is watching over you. Sorry you had some darkness in your past, now I understand why you dont like intrusions without inviting them. Please know that we are loyal readers of your blog and appreciate it. I read several blogs but yours is my first go to….the one that I am most drawn to and the one that I relate to. It amazes me that you have kept it up as much as you have. You are an inspiration to all of us.
Thank you for allowing us into your world.
You’re welcome, Deb. Such a kind comment. I appreciate you.
Sue, while I sure do enjoy your blog, I often wonder if it ever becomes a ‘job’. I know we are fortunate to have you out there adventuring for us… so please know I don’t take you for granted! No sympathy here… totally get it. I can’t handle ‘drop by’ people myself, so I TOTALLY GET IT! 🙂
Hugs from Hoquiam, as always!
Barb
PS I think I have shared with you that I am a TBI survivor. I also deal with PTSD. No whining, just is what it is. Sunday, I was to drive over to the kids’ to help out and goof a bit… Had to turn around and come back… Just couldn’t do it. I am lucky-those were EVERY day days a few years ago… This lasted a day. Monday, I got up, and zzooooomed.
Sometimes you just need time. I can’t think of a better way to find peace. Your feathered friend story is a treasure to be sure.
And again, Hugs from Hoquiam! B
I’ve met a few people who experienced Traumatic Brain Injury and the slow recovery. I admire them and you, Barb. Hugs to you, too.
RVSue:
When I was in Hawaii with my girls celebrating our 50th birthday recently I felt much like you are describing. After posting on here and you pretty much giving me permission to be myself, I felt amazing. Never know what will make you feel better. Well, and that facial and full body massage helped also.
Phyllis in Oklahoma
Hi, Phyllis!
We are loners and we are legion! Go forth proudly as an individual in a world of coffee klatches, club get-togethers, happy hours, and pot luck suppers! We are solitary moons among constellations! Isolates of the world, unite! Oh, no, that’s not right… Isolates of the world, stand alone! 🙂
You have a wonderful day, Phyllis.
Welcome to normal for most of us. Some days I have GOBS of energy and some days I just want to veg. But I was getting worried about you so I’m glad you found the energy to post a few words to let us know you’re coping with life and smart enough to recognize it and take some time to rest and recuperate.
Hi, Reine,
It was nagging at me… gotta’ post, gotta’ post, even if only a few words. Trouble with me … I can’t just throw something out into cyberspace. I’m too much of a perfectionist for that. It was a relief when the words finally came. It’s not great literature, but, hey, it’s only a blog, I tell myself.
Your humming bird (great picture by the way) seems much larger than the tiny Ruby throated hummers that hang around my feeders in the warm months. Mine, not really mine, had all flown south or somewhere warmer by October this year. They are so much fun to watch and so curious. I am looking forward to their return around May. I find them very peaceful to be around. Gotta go shopping.
Hi, Ruth,
I was so surprised and intent upon taking a photo quickly before the little creature tired himself out that I didn’t note his coloring. Yes, hummingbirds are peaceful to watch. I’ve always found it calms me to watch someone else work, and those birds sure do work their wings.
🙂 Shop on!
I love you
I love you, too.
Like some of the other people who have commented, Sue, we all need to take time for ourselves occasionally. I call it my “running away from home” time when I just take off for the weekend or a few days, drive for a few hours, then check into a motel and just veg for awhile. Thanks for letting us know you may not be posting for a bit. Just take some time for yourself, and we’ll be here when you “get back” so to speak. Sending some positive energy your way!
Hi, Cari,
Whatever gets you back on track… do it! Right now, this morning, answering these comments is a good thing for me. Yesterday I couldn’t. So I’m expecting this to be a good day!
Thanks for the positive energy.
I follow your blog almost daily but rarely comment.
Have you had a medical checkup lately?
Nope. Thanks for following my blog, Bev, and for caring enough to comment.
Sue. I know the feeling a little. been this way since Death (to the internet) Valley last week.
Hi, Kent,
When I think of you, I see smiling eyes. Hope that sparkle comes back to you soon!
I read your blog every day but rarely post a reply (if ever?) I love reading it, full of your observations and your wonderful companion doggies, it makes me smile. I wonder if you ought to keep hummingbird food and a small feeder to carry with you on your treks, who knows who might find you there, willing and able to help them out with a little drink! As for PTSD and all our emotional baggage, know you are not alone. And as for you being a communicator with nature, clearly you are, though you may be more fond of the rational states of being needed to continue your trek with mastery rather than the intuitive jaunts that leave one breathless. There are spirits out there where you roam, but I doubt they wish you anything but well. Thanks for the gift of your sharing.
Hi, ruthiebee,
You’re welcome. You inspired me to dig out my hummingbird feeder. It’s a new one I purchased after I destroyed the defective one.
Interesting dichotomy you describe… rationality and intuition. I need both! Yes, I agree, spirits inhabit this place.
Thank you for reading my blog every day.
Oh I am so happy you got your feeder out! To me we owe our wild friends all the help we can give them since we may not have lived lightly on the earth at all times. Our birds here in the woods eat us out of house and home all four seasons of the year and torment us if seed is not out! the hummers are the same way, dive bombing us if the nectar is not forthcoming. I love birds. Clearly you do too and they love you. Many thanks for bearing the torch of the brave traveler. And as I often tell my grown son, compassion is never the wrong response, towards any living thing (and the inanimate too! )
Sue, by being as open and honest as you are, you have actually touched many hearts. That is a gift we have all received from you. I think you actually modeled for others one possible way to respond to what you are going through and acknowledged that it really is okay to go through it.
I am hoping to full-time by the end of February but I see that, for me, this process takes longer than I would have expected. Part of the problem is making sure I take the time I need for myself to recuperate from whatever I’ve done. This past weekend I went to motorcycle training class. The plan is to have a scooter to get around with in addition to a 32′ Class A motorhome (or whatever I end up getting). I don’t want a toad. Passed the class and then I had to spend two full days recovering from it! Today I went to DMV and got my new license and promptly went out to purchase the scooter. I’ve got about a week before I get it so I’m hoping I get to some of the other things on my list. My place looks like I’ve never cleaned it! But I’ve learned I need to follow the ebb and flow of my body’s needs otherwise the price I would pay is huge. To me, that’s exactly what you are doing. Is it emotional, physical? I guess my question is – does it really matter? Kicking back into the slow lane seems to be the cure and that is the important piece.
Take really good care of yourself and we’ll be here whenever you are! Thank you for being such a person of integrity.
Hi, Deborah,
I almost didn’t write about my jittery state, thinking readers might see it as self-pity. If I helped anyone by posting it, I’m glad.
I want to keep this blog on the pleasant side of the street, but not at the sacrifice of truth regarding my daily life and the lives of my crew.
I got a thrill reading your plans to full-time, specifically your training to ride a scooter. Good for you! You are making the decisions and acting upon them that will shape a life of your own design. Learning new skills is part of the process. I’m happy for you!
I also believe it was a “visit”.
Take some “Sue and the crew” time……..we’re not going anywhere!
Hi, Cinandjules,
I want you to be able to take some time, too. You are another one of my readers whom I thought of when writing my problem is “miniscule compared to what some of my readers have to cope with.” So please do what is right for you to stay whole. A prayer is going up for you and your family . . .
There are always peaks and valleys as each one of us journeys down the paths in life.
The ruts in the road can not be “measured” as each bump is different from the last. Your “tire” may pause in the rut momentarily but soon enough it frees itself and next thing you know….you’re on that unknown path again!
Thank heavens some of us (not me) have a trusty dusty benchmark atlas!
With that….yesterday is the past …today is just beginning. Now go live that dash!
God bless you, Sue and crew.
Reading all of the encouraging posts, you are indeed loved by many!
May the creatures keep holding you close, and your days pass in complete serenity.
As for the rest of us, it’s Holiday shopping time!!! On Sue’s Amazon, of course!
Hi, Diann,
I do appreciate all the encouragement I receive through this blog.
Oh yeah, holiday shopping! My November sales are down. I’m hoping it’s a holding pattern before the big shopping takes off. 🙂 (Hey, money’s good to have. I won’t deny it.)
Thanks for your supportive comment. God’s blessings upon you, too.
Sweet Sue, I always put out several bird feeders when I am at Quartzite.The hummers love it and also the seed eaters. I usually put up my homemade drip too( a one gallon jug with a tiny hole in the bottom that drips into an aluminum pan) Birds love the sound dripping water.I usually get lots of birds to watch and enjoy.Hope you do too.
Grandjan
Thank you, Grandjan. I put up a hummer feeder and it wasn’t long before the first visitor arrived. I had to jerry-rig a way to suspend it on the back of the BLT. Our campsite doesn’t have any trees.
This is the window feeder Chuck and I bought from Amazon! EZ to put together and the hummers come right up to the window! No need to hang anything!
Aspects 407 Jewel Box Window Hummingbird Feeder, 8-Ounce
(Geri, I replaced your link with one of mine. More bird feeder links are on the Shopping Links page.)
Sounds exactly like the symptoms I get when my thyroid meds are not right! A medical check up might be a good idea. Take care Sue.
Hi, Pam,
If it persists, I’ll have it checked. An occasional bout of nervousness and lethargy? Probably I won’t. I appreciate your concern for me.
I too have had bouts with “nerves” in years past. For me, the calming influence came in the presence of a flock of snowy egrets next to our camp at a secluded lake. It seems that the birds help everyone.
On a separate subject; it looks in your first photo of this post that the rear end of your PTV is sitting much lower than the front end. Is it an optical illusion, or could the rear springs be sagging?
Hi, Hot Cal,
The PTV doesn’t have the best springs in the world, but she’s not sagging like that photo shows. I noticed it, too, and expected someone to mention it. 🙂
I did put some heavy things in the back end, including 10 one-gallon jugs of water. Another cause for the PTV tilting downward at the end is the slope of the ground.
Even when all is level, the level, horizontal line of the bottom of the PTV is lower than the level, horizontal line of the BLT’s bottom. The hitch extension compensates for this.
When I sell so many Amazon products that my bank account overflows, maybe I’ll fix up the PTV so she rides high and handsome!
You can get these air bag units that bolt to the rear axle and frame. The nice thing is you can adjust to level by changing the air pressure in the bags.
http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=firestone%20ride-rite%202423
This is what Chuck has in his truck… useful!
Well, Danny, Mick, and Chuck… the trifecta of all things worthwhile . . .
Hi, Mick,
You’re the second person to suggest those things! I first heard about them from Danny when we camped beside the Tieton River. Now I need to click that link and take a look!
My RV came with them. I’ve never figured out if I need them or not… or what to do with them actually. I have them set at 40 lbs… and have never changed that setting in 3 years. 🙂
Your comments about and being off center can also be signs of low blood sugar or low blood pressure. How long has it been since you have seen a doctor? You don’t have to answer that question to us, your readers, but think bout it. Annual physicals are a good plan. Our bodies change so much as we age, so much without any signs of something wrong, but you want to pay attention just the same. You are always my first read of the day. I enjoy your blog.
Hi, Gene,
I’m honored to be your “first read of the day.” Thanks for caring enough to comment on my health.
When did I last see a doctor? Um, during the Clinton administration maybe? Ha! Just kidding . . .
Maybe I’ll get my act together some time this winter and go get a check-up. I do have low blood sugar at times and, yes, I’m one of those people who walks around on the energy from the sun and moon, rather than any blood pumping through my veins. LOL!
I have been a reader of your blog for a long time but rarely comment. I appreciate your honesty Sue. I too love meeting new people but often have anxiety issues about doing so. I also understand the need for what I call “down time”. Hang in there.
Hi, Gayle,
Some people are energized by people. Others are drained. When I’m with people, I’m the first type for a short while, then I’m the second type and have to isolate myself.
You hang in there, too! Thank you for reading my blog “for a long time” and for taking the time to comment.
Hi Sue! From time to time everybody needs to be alone with nature..it is part of us…It is getting harder and harder to connect and be alone with the solitude and the peace that we need.I call it “getting my tuneup!” Heck… my friends and family thought I lost it when I bought my “private 10 acre campground” in the boonies of W. Texas…I love it ..no one can bother me and there is only the music of nature to sooth the soul… It is my retreat ( also I share it with my friends)
What a great thing that you have your own ten acres of solitude! Maybe I’ll do something like that some day. I’d have an awful time choosing where it would be though.
I know I’m an old biddy when it comes to noisy things like loud music, generators, and OHVs. I can’t bear unnecessary noise! Yes, it’s getting more and more difficult to find peace and quiet, just as absolute darkness is rare.
Enjoy your peaceful retreat!
Hi Sue,
Before my mother died she said I will come with the birds, and sure enough at her funeral a humming bird showed up and hovered just above out family for about 3 minutes…made sure to look at everyone of us as they do…and then it was gone….so you have been blessed. Take care of you psyche and the crew….you know where we are.
Shirlene in Cali
Hi, Shirlene,
Such a sweet and precious memory from your mother. Thank you for telling us.
In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.
Albert Schweitzer
Just bought my Hubby’s Christmas gift on Sue’s Amazon! Hey! Before ya know it the snow will fly in earnest up here in the frigid North and cause everyone’s heart to be in the shopping mood! Now doesn’t that make you shiver, Sue!?!
Enjoy the sun!
Well, Diann, actually it WARMS my heart! 🙂 Thanks for the order and for posting a reminder here.
Long-time reader…not much of a talker……..but – ta da …. BIG BIG HUG!!!
Ooh, I can feel the love . . .
Dear Sue,
I got some advice once that has lived with me since.
“Sometimes you need to give yourself permission to be gentle with yourself.”
We readers of your wonderful blog can also give you permission to take a break. Come back when you’re up to it and renewed.
We’re not going anywhere, we’ll be here!
Peace, Fortuna Robert
You’re a thoughtful guy, Fortuna Robert.
Hi Sue,
I just loved the reminder of the outcome of the previous hummingbird feeder. It still makes me laugh out loud. I was so surprised at what you did to it. I hope that whatever you purchase or use is more satisfactory than that one. Be well.
Pat in KS
Hi, Pat,
This Perky Pet feeder is perkier than the other Perky Pet feeder. I’m proud that my tutorial is so memorable!
Say THAT five times fast, will ya.
I am glad Amazon sends me emails daily, or I would have missed the sale. I am a bit slow reading emails lately and didn’t get your blog post till today, but I ordered my KEEN sandals yesterday. These days I order all my Amazon stuff through your blog. It’s not much, but I guess every little bit helps. I also ordered several Benchmark atlases and will be heading south within the next 10 days or so for six months. It’s a little scary to think that I will be alone on the road with just my dog and (very old) cat for company.
Ilse
Hi, Ilse,
I saw your orders (well, there were seven pairs of KEENs listed on my orders report this morning), including some Benchmark atlases. Thank you very much!
Every purchase is important to me and appreciated. The more items sold, the higher my commission rate. So even the 99 cent kindle books that earn me a few pennies are important to me.
Use common sense, let go of the conditioning to be afraid of being alone, and have a fantastic six months! Do that and I dare say that after some time on the road you’ll exchange the phrase “alone on the road” for “free on the road!”
I’m so sad that Keen’s don’t come in narrow. As the years pass it is becoming more and more difficult to find narrow shoes. Almost never in stores anymore… 🙁
Connie,
I did a search at Amazon.com (of course) using the words “women’s narrow width shoes” and it brought up a selection. Hope you find what you want.
Been there… done that… The next problem is how inaccurate sizes are… one brand it might be a 7… another a 7.5… another an 8. This is as it has always been, but when you can actually try shoes on before purchase… it is significantly more convenient than constantly having to return. I have ordered probably 20 pairs of shoes on line in the past. Only one pair actually fit. So, I gave up. (even though most online shoe companies have free shipping and return, one still has to schlep them to the post office.)
Just getting to this blog now – better late than never. I’m having my very first experience, in Floribunda Flair motorhome, with being the only RV anywhere in sight. I know most of your followers like to be out in the outback, alone. I didn’t think it was for me. Well, that’s changed now. I’m in a free park with electricity and water hook ups – free for four days every 30 – in Elk City, OK. I got here yesterday afternoon – nobody here. It’s been fabulous and I’m still in my PJs loving every minute of the solitude. There’s a small lake, not too much in the way of beautiful trees and shrubs, the wind is whistling and it’s coool. I’m thoroughly enjoying it and plan to stay at least one more night.
I missed the KEEN sale for not reading your post on time. Oh, well, money saved – for now at least.
I had to admit that I’d lost my kitty, Lincoln, this week in Amarillo. It was difficult to admit and to leave without him, but I’ll surely go back if he’s found by any of the shelters or owners at the RV park. I just don’t hold out very much hoe after a week. Sad.
Mary Pat Sherman
Never give up hope on Lincoln. Remember we found Timber after two months and he was lost in the woods.
If you wouldn’t mind providing color, sex and where abouts in Amarillo. The name of the rv park will do. Cats don’t tend to stray far especially if the don’t know the area.
No promises but I’ll give it my best
No need for a description I just found his pic on your blog
Hi:
I’m so moved by other people’s caring. Thank you so much. You’ve seen his picture. He’s a neutered male, a year and a half old. He has a chip so I’ll be notified if the chip is read. We were staying in Fort Amarillo RV Park on Business I-40 (Also called Amarillo Blvd. on the north side of the freeway). The nearest I-40 exit is Soncy Road.
Mary Pat
Still searching. Lincoln had a collar and leash on correct?
There is a site called “lost pets in amarillo TX facebook”. It includes sightings. If Lincoln is still wearing both he will definitely attract attention. May I suggest you post a “lost” thread that includes a picture and the fact that he may still be dragging his leash! In the area of Amarillo RV park.
Hi, Mary-Pat,
The joys of being alone with nature… glad you found it pleasant being by yourself. I know your heart aches for your cat. I wish I could make you feel better. I hope your alone time eases the pain.
Hi Sue:
I’m still here at the park and loving it. So serene. I will say that yesterday in the late afternoon another RV showed up and parked RIGHT NEXT TO ME. For crying out loud, this is a big area. Why would they park so close to me? Hope RVers who’ve done something like this are reading this.
Thanks for your kind words; I do ache for Lincoln.
Sue ..this is from my heart to yours ..you are welcome at the 10+ acre retreat anytime…you have my email if you want email I will send you my # And directions…it is a private retreat…:) park anywhere … 🙂 My heart to yours ..:)Betty–Shea.
Thank you, Betty-Shea. What a nice offer. Maybe some day I’ll take you up on that.
With all the driving around that you do it is hard to reconnect with Mother Earth. She will help balance you when you need it and it sounds like this might be a good time to try. Just take a stick with a 5 foot length of rope and scribe yourself a circle on Mother Earth. Put a blanket down and lay on it inside the circle. Wear a swim suit and let the Sun relax you as Mother Earths frequencies allow you to come back into balance. Some people have the ability to feel Mothers energy so move around inside the circle to get the feel and lay there in silence with a little prayer for her to help you.
Okay, so I head out to a peaceful place in the desert with a blanket and a rope, wearing a swimsuit. What the heck do I say to the prospectors? LOL!
Thanks for the mystic remedy, Joe. I’ll tell my dermatologist I was soaking up the Earth’s energies. (Just teasing you a bit)
Hey Sue…from now on, just say you have a case of the ‘vapors’! 😉
Yes, it’s my delicate constitution.
HA, ha!!!! Love that!!!!!! Stay delicate!!!!heeheheeeeee.Chuckles
What helped change my mood today? My mean-spirited, hyper-critical, never-gonna-please-her consulting supervisor told me “you should be proud of what you’re doing in your classroom.” Teachers don’t hear that enough today, and it really was a blessing for me in the midst of my questioning of my purpose in life. I might make it until Thanksgiving!
YEA!!!; Tenneese Teacher DeAnne, we need more like you.
And we definitely need great friends like you! Thanks for adopting all of us when you made friends with Sue.
Ditto!
Eastern Sierras
hello Quartsite
thats depressing
I get what you’re saying. 🙂
It doesn’t feel like I’m camped at Quartzsite. I’ve hardly been into town. I feel like I’m camped in the desert where white rocks are scattered about, and I like the desert.
Of course, nothing is quite like the eastern Sierra.
Happens to me too Sue. It actually happens a lot. My posts may seem seamless from day to day but it is a real struggle at times & I try not to let it leak into my posts but it does. There are good writing days, happy writing days, creative writing days. And then there are the other days. But I never have a day I do not question myself about this whole blogging thing. Not a day. And yet without sitting down at the end of each day typing out my thoughts I am a lost soul. My blog is my favored form of communication & expression. And even that can become strained at times. Sure know what you mean by unexpected drop in guests making you nervous. I try to make the best of it but it becomes harder all the time………………..
Al, like many of Sue’s readers, I read your posts faithfully every day, but I don’t comment often. I honestly don’t think you or Sue should feel bad about stepping back a day or three and just take a deep breath and do some exciting YOU want to do, then come back and tell us all about it! I love your photography, especially the birds!
2 days ago, coming home over the bay bridge, a magnificent bald eagle not 20 feet from us as he passed by with wings spread wide eyes downward looking for unsuspecting fish! We see more bald eagles in this small corner of Florida than we ever saw out west! Wish I had your lens to capture their magic!
So you and Sue have no need to feel a responsibility to us, except to not let us become a burden to you! We will always be here on the other side of the computer, ready to see what you 2 want to share with us!
Hey Sue,why not treat yourself to a visit to the Clinic/Doctor and get the blood test and then you know what the issue is?.
I have never been one to run to the Doc but that heart attack was my wake up call I guess,so as much as I hate needles,I went yesterday and got that blood test and it didn’t even hurt.I do it at least twice a year and am learning that as we age,it’s good medicine to do the same preventative maint on my body as I do with my vehicles.
Vitamin advice is nice and works for some and even I take a supplement,but before I would or did as in my case,I found out exactly what was going on with a Dr. visit and a blood test.
Have a great weekend Sue and let me us know how the visit and blood test went.
If your really sweet,they might even give you a toy or a sticker Sue.
Hey Sue! I love your blog.My husband is just 2 months from retirement and we have been looking at casitas..we were lucky enough to meet Eileen from Lovemycasita and she arranged for us to meet her and some casita buddies in Payson and we got to “tour” 6 casitas! We’re hooked.. looking now for a uses one .. may take time, I know, but we are in the process of moving to the mountains of Pine/Strawberry,Az.. so we have some time to pull this all together.. we are embracing our lifelong dream to live in the country!!And in the woods.Next after that : A tiny RV for seeing more of the beautiful Southwest and the Pacific coast..
Your blog is an inspiration– some days I feel overwhelmed at all we are doing.. but one bite at a time and our dreams are coming to pass.. it takes courage to make such big changes but hey! We’re old hippies, just re capturing our authentic selves.. after many years of care giving professions.. time for US!! !
Anyway: a VERY good book about moods, happiness, emotions, and just plain old daily living is “SPONTANEOUS HAPPINESS” by Dr. Andrew Weil. He reveals his own challenges with occassional depression and mood shifts, and has some very unique perspectives on our expectations regarding “happiness..” It is material I have not seen elsewhere and lots of natural strategies for changing one’s state.. (Or, just letting it be, sometimes!!!) Anyway– you can get this book on AMAZON so you may want to post a link so your readers can order through you ..it’s a great read.
Enjoy your day,Sue..and thanks for sharing..
Pine/Strawberry, lovely places, been a long time since I was up there. One of my favorite places anywhere is just north of them. West Clear Creek, 3 canyons in 1. The campground at the west end is the bits, at least it was in the 80s. The east end is best or if you can get to the middle where it all narrows down is truly amazing.
Gee, RvSue, it looks like you got showered with well wishes and sympathy anyway!!
Include mine with all the rest and I guess you will just have to go with it!
You were talking about being coyote bait-last night my dog, Napoleon, who sleeps in his kennel at night (my 15 year old cat sleeps with us) must have heard some coyotes howling, as they frequently do around here, and let out two of the most blood curdling howls I have ever heard a dog make! Talk about “call of the wild”. I think he would have joined them at that point if I had let him out the door!
BTW, I love your pictures, especially the birds!
Take it easy.
Hi, Terri… Thanks for the compliment on my bird photos.
If you mention RVSue when you order your Casita, she will get a small $$ allowance from them and it will help keep her on the road and keep the blog rolling along with her! Thanks!
Ya know what’s neat? RvSue’s reputation is on a first name basis!
Hmm others that go by their first name…let’s see Elton, Celine, Elvis, Ellen, Cher……….
I think she ought to be a Casita poster woman especially with that photo reflecting off the BLT’s window!
You go girl!
I sure wish Sue’s blog had a “like” button similiar to FaceBook! Because I sure woulda pushed “thumbs up” on that comment CinandJules! Only I woulda say “RVSue Rocks”! hahaha!
🙂
The hummers are migrating to Mexico as well as other insects i.e. grass hoppers and butterflies. We saw a bunch of grasshoppers and butterflies at the base of Shiprock in NM this past weekend. This time of year my back yard is full of buzzing & whirling hummers all fighting over bird bath & feeders. While on the rez a year ago, a hummer kept buzzing us while we were outside working. My youngest sister Sue held her hand palm up and caught the hummer while hovering. We each blessed ourselves with the hummer (a sacred bird) and released it. Some birds we no longer see on the rez i.e. cardinals, blue jays, wood peckers, etc. I often wonder where they went. A friend used to refer to her mother as her ‘Jay’ maybe cuz her mother talked a lot. They were wonderful people and I missed them. Both mother and daughter no longer walk the earth.
Hi, Rita,
I was surprised to see a grasshopper here. I didn’t know they lived in the desert (or pass through on their way to somewhere else.)
Sue, We could see you perched out there today (what’s up with you having 2 neighbors??) as we cruised by…we waved but I’m sure you didn’t see us. Hubby & I are in Tonopah for a couple of days before moving in southward.
Take Care & have a safe warm winter.
Hi, Penny . . . The crew and I camped near Tonopah next to Saddle Mountain.
Sue, that’s where we camped as well though we were at the RV park. For the life of me I can’t seem to talk my hubby into boondocking. He’s such a city boy & Im a country girl, maybe one day he’ll cave in to me. 🙂
Hi Penny,
If you get your husband to try it just once, you may convince him that boondocking is the way to go. And it’s a lot cheaper! Good luck.
Hi Sue… All hummers don’t leave us in the Winter. Mine feed year round. Those that do, fly from here and over the Gulf of Mexico to winter high in the mountains of Mexico. Think about that. Those little guys making that trip non-stop. Pretty amazing but then most of nature is.
Winds blowing dust. Here in Arizona don’t you or the crew be out there when it blows dust. There is a spore here that is very dangerous and it is in the soil. It can cause Valley Fever which is very bad.
It blew pretty hard, lot’s of airborne course particles but not where I am. Casa Grande got it bad.
Keep ’em flyin lady…
Thanks for the reminder to all of us, Jim, about the desert dust. One of the things I look for when camping in the desert is an area with land forms that block some of the wind. There are plenty of places to camp here at Dome Rock but many of them are in wide open spaces that act as wind tunnels.
Another thought. You talk about the way the rig is sitting being somewhat of a optical illusion. Years ago out in the urban hills of San Diego there was a hill that was nicknamed Magnet hill. The terrain on the sides of the road made it appear you were going uphill when in fact you were actually going down the hill. Guys used to go up there and turn off the key and show their dates that the “Magnetic field” would pull the car uphill. Fun!!
Jim, There is a place in Lake Wales FL called “Spook Hill” for the same reason!
Cool! When I was a young fella, I took a date or two up there and impressed them that my ’41 chev would climb that hill without the engine being on.
Hi Sue,
Most insurance will cover an annual health screen with blood test. Since none of us are getting any younger, were need to take precautions, but not be ridiculous.
However, I so understand about the blah, out of sorts days. Since my bout with cancer this summer, the body just doesn’t seem to want to do what the brain knows it should. Sometimes I force myself to do things, other, I just say “it will still be there tomorrow.”
I enjoy your blog and you are my first read, as well. Take care of yourself.
Hi, Barbara,
It’s petty of me to blog about my “out of sorts” feeling when you and so many others are dealing with much bigger challenges.
Thanks for making me your “first read” and for sharing here.